Ignorance and Bliss

Yesterday Today and again Tomorrow I willFind those who the truth offends.  I’m not talking about opinions bullying  but those who are in the state of eternal bliss of ignorance   

I’m told that people are offended if facts don’t support their agenda. Why?  I may not and sometimes don’t like reality but it’s there smacking  me in the face.  So I take it think about it and go on my way. 

Not those dancing in the joy of their own reality.  “Don’t do that” or the ever popular “I know but…..”. Continue to be spoken and the truth skirted. 

Those with the knowledge need not speak although it’s frustrating the obvious reality will come about.  I wish no harm only help. Not to be a know it all just to help.  I will sit on the sidelines and watch the twirling the tapping the grinding but eventually the bliss comes from knowledge 

Sounds of silence

Summer brings with it the songs of the birds they wake me up ever morning and the tree frogs And crickets lull me to sleep with their sweet sounds – this I long for in the dead of winter. 

The kids -that are few and far between-  ride bike and scooters they throw balls and frisbees between the laughing and crying fowl I truly love it !!!

Sprinklers the ice cream man home improvement projects the crows and pick up games all have their own music. 

Quiet in the dead of night. Stars blazing the moon shinning. The lighting bugs dance and the neighbors unwanted cat visit the gardens without a sound   I pray for this always the silent night and it’s darkened beauty   The peace and comfort that comes with the darkness interupted by slivers of sunlight and the songs of the birds   

A viscous and summer cycle.  I love it 

Down the rabbit hole

Well it’s happened  well maybe.  I’ve become a person who never fights for myself.  I will fight like hell for those I love but never for me. It’s a place of self hatred. It’s a room filled with misinformation and I have allowed it.  

What bothers me is I could solve or have tried to solve issues and have made them worse. I stop explaining and allow whatever is said to be people’s truths about me. It hurts but I’m the author by not wanting to fight.  Funny I will do anything for others but not for me. My world is the weirdest of weird designed by my silence. 

I’m wrapped by a non vocal fence roped with the barbs of words and still silence is my defense.  

I’m like the rabbit who runs to her hole – it’s dark cold and decorated with what I know and others don’t. It’s not warm and safe it’s desolate by my design. I’ve tried but it’s my reality my life my truths not heard. Yes I’ve done wrong – nothing horrible but yes I’ve not been a Saint but who has?  

Sorry isn’t enough I don’t tell I allow hurtful things to be said I walk away. No one asks they allow me to making me believe I’m not worth it   

So back in with my head poking out occasionally to see what else I’ve done without a word I’m down the rabbit hole

Flowers

The bees buzzing are a true sign that spring is turning to summer!! My favorite time of year. The sun the smell of grass being cut and the flowers. 

I’m in true joy while in the garden. It gives me a true sense of peace.  I don’t want to hurry. I love just weeding and watching them grow. 

I dont mind the sweat dirt or the humidity. I’m in a zone of the purest of pleasure in my life. I love the blooming I’m saddened by having to cut the dead and the dirt under my nails isn’t a bother at all. I’m happy!!!

The colors are vibrant the smells are enough to send me into a state of euphoria and the next generation coming on always is a great joy!!! Have I said I love gardening??

I run through the daily chores work and shopping I must do to spend hours upon hours just playing in the dirt.  

So until fall I will be found outside in one of my many gardens. I don’t bother bring my phone the birds singing are the music I love  the most. Till fall.  The though saddens me but till then you’ll know where to find me

That loving feeling

Who doesn’t love love? The love of family friends your pets and that special someone all have difrent meanings  and a special place in your heart. 

A pets love is the easiest relationship you’ll ever be in.  They are happy to see you even when it’s been less Than a minute since you left . They wag circle and smile just to make sure you know how special you are to them. In return they want absolutely nothing but your love. And well maybe a scratch pat or you speaking to them in a high pitches voice telling them how special they are!

Friends are always evolving and come and go out of your life. That’s ok. A true friend is someone who you haven’t seen for while but your conversations pick up like it was yesterday. Your circle of friends change but a true friend will have your back no matter what. They want nothing more than to spend time with you and to catch up on some gossip. No naxk talking or spreading rumors they will squash them for you because they love you. 

Family – at least mine- is complicated. It’s unconditional with a fair amount of talking behind ones back. They may say what they choose but wouldn’t allow a non family member to speak ill about you unless they agree with said person. It’s back stabbing and hurtful but its family. It’s Christmas and some other holidays that are mandatory and end early because no one has a choice you go or your the subject of that days nonsense. I’ve heard a lot of talk but my defense is silence I don’t fight back. 

My daughter and son in law are the best parents- really. They work hard they are always with their kids and they are achieving the best life possible for themselves. I love to listen to them and the way the family handles their joys love and problems. They are a great “unit”.

Love heart felt love well that is something we all want and strive to have.  It comes in all sizes many versions and has the biggest part of your heart. Funny how this love can cause stress with the above if you don’t live up to their standards. I say go for it. Dont let people dictate how to love. Learn to love -and when needed relearn how to love.  Open your eyes heart and soul and maybe just maybe we can teach each other love 

Doggy Wisdom

My dog lives on the perpetually sunny side of the street. She doesn’t chase rabbits squirrels or the neighborhood cats. She doesn’t bark at the mailman – she actually sits by the fence tail wagging waiting on her  pet and scratch behind the ears and Scott always asks “how’s your day going Star?”.

She watches the neighborhood kids ride their bikes and scooters and the other dogs on the street go For their daily walks all without one single yip or yap. 

Star is a dog snob preferring the older dogs and not the young pups.  She loves going with me to weed the gardens (and other outside jobs) finding her perfect spot under a tree to take one of many daily snoozes. She’s a happy girl!! Loving every human she meets. 

She dislikes  loud noises – (though thunder doesn’t make her quiver) – she  has a true distain for the sound of a screw gun the engine sounds of my harley the crackling of empty water bottles and “suped” up car of one of the neighbors and car alarms. This sends her into a circle complete with the loudest barks she ever does!  She is inconsolable and will not stop till the noise is done!  She will watch and wait till the noise that sends her into her “dance” bark and pant is done that is till the next time.  She’s aware it may happen again!! 

She was a gift (a perfectly wonderful gift from my daughter son in law and their kids) and joined  myself and Elmer (another Shetland Sheepdog)   She played ball swam in the pool and would play with dogs at The local park.  After Elmer’s passing she lost interest in play of all kinds she will not even chew a bone for long. She will start and seam as if she’s having the best time then after about 15-20 minutes she done with it and will not touch it again   

So doggy wisdom isn’t for us to understand it’s to teach us about us. She’s taught me that grief isn’t just for the human animal it reaches into our pets souls too. Stars dislike of loud noises is never compromised and is always the same.  Her friends are Her friends without a single word ever spoken.  She doesn’t fall into the “dogs hate mailmen cats squirrels or rabbits “senerio the lesson being we are all different but the same.  Just get along. Doesn’t like dogs to much I’m thinking it tells us it’s ok to be alone and to be different. She’s a marvelous honest soul. Who’s teachings of love one another even if it’s from a distance would serve us all so well. 

She’s got a PhD in getting along with or without speaking a word. Star shines as a brilliant being who sticks to her truths and shares her sparkle with all that meet her. Thank you Miss Star for teaching me ⭐️💫🌟

Rain on me 

Love the summer! The soft warm winds the flowers the sun shinning and the kicking off of shoes and my toes in the grass. This year is different we’ve had so much rain!! 

Now don’t get me wrong I love the sound of thunder and seeing the lightning rip across the sky but this is crazy!!

April we had hot sunny 90 degree days May was wet and cool and now June I’m watching the flowers get watered and the dog acquire that special wet dog smell – ugh. 

I sit here like the kids in the “cat in the hat” looking out the window wishing for the sun to return I’m thinking Mother Earth is screaming and the rain are the tears of frustration. 

I believe our climate is changing. I know we need to apologize to nature on our misuse of her gifts. I’m waiting and not so patiently for the sun to return the vegetable plants  to produce and for the dog to not have that special doggy odor ala swamp   I’m just waiting for the long days warm nights and being outside getting a tan – with sun screen of course