I suck

End of story

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So it goes

“Knowing” that you’ve been told your loved is beyond different than being loved. Loose tongues and those who need to be in the popular group spit lies 1/2 truths and never ask you if what is being said is true.

So short and sweet be true to yourselves –

Don’t go back to “old” post

To make

Your point

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And truly watson you SUCK for

Pretending to be

A

Friend a

Confidant. YOU SUCK. You don’t nor ever will know the reason behind true friendship. You pretend you lie – calling me the ass when you’ve broken our friendship by spilling secrets. So keep it up it makes you feel

Better bigger person. Crush me. I’ve kept the post with me and your sister in law then You think wiser so that you are the perfect person remove her name and just punch me because your gutless. I will forever be strong you depend on pushing people into nonsense so your sense makes perfect sense. I wait And never will receive return phone calls

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You lie. Be

Perfect

I’m useless

You suck

You will never believe – let me tell you a story

I as people know am a widow. I became a member of this awful club on 2/7/10 after my husband of 30 years died of multiple system failure after getting the flu and being on the biological drug called Enbrel. His death was sudden harsh and threw me into a panic I couldn’t explain if I tried – that’s a face to face conversation (if you’re brave enough).

Years passed my friends left my family talks About me and man chose to be brave enough to take me on. Yeah Todd!!!!

Fast forward to 1/26/18 we have been looking for a dog to adopt. (Have you ever tried? Think I could get a child quicker ๐Ÿ˜‚). From about last spring. We had thought we would take my daughters dog because at times it wasn’t a perfect fit. But on January 26 I was remembering sad and morning Dale – you see it was our 38th Anniversary. Opening my emails just to see what I needed to do I seen “you’ve been matched with a dog click to see ” so dutifully I clicked. This little low rider dog who was a stray needed a home. His name was Dale B well guess who needed him??? ME!!!!

I’m approved!!! He’s coming from Alabama to Pennsylvania on 2/17/18.

I teased you – it’s a beginning. Never had a short haired dog – my present dog will hate it for a bit and it’s proven to me that those we love and lose look after us cradle our hearts and send us signs. In my case Dale Byers sent me Dale B on a day of past memories to make me remember that future memories are possible

Thanks Dale Byers for still loving me and sending me gifts

The end of …

Summers end was In September but it hangs on bravely here on October 9,2017. My flowers have wilted and been pulled by the roots from their place of honor as have the veggies that I already look forward to having next year.

The end to me become quickly the beginning!! Itโ€™s the beginning of looking forward to growing beautiful roses peppers marigolds and tomatoes. Itโ€™s the thoughts of how and where next year they will be planted to grow better.

The thought of buying less than perfect vegetables and over priced flower bouquets becomes I canโ€™t wait till I can go out to the garden and grab my sometimes imperfect Lillieโ€™s or potatoes and enjoy the fruits of my labors.

So the end makes a perfect beginning to me

A million an one

Everyone has a view on everything going on in the world. They are sometimes driven by religion political views or by experience.

I have them too. Iโ€™m called a โ€œliberalโ€ because I try to live by the motto โ€œlive and let liveโ€. Doesnโ€™t mean Iโ€™m right but I surly canโ€™t be wrong all the time – I stand for what I believe in and love a lively debate. Thatโ€™s the problem.

I think our society has gone from letโ€™s talk about it to letโ€™s attack each other. This boggles my mind. How can you ever have someone respect your opinion when people at times feel as if the only way to do this is through harsh demeaning criticism?

Calling someone stupid uneducated or even worse tends to make people think that itโ€™s not worth their time to listen and take into consideration your side of a story. Iโ€™ve heard people say the unkindest things to people who are important to them. I get heated exchanges but getting a point across isnโ€™t accomplished by cruel words.

So yep there are a million people who agree with each other – a million who canโ€™t – Iโ€™m the million and one who can see both sides with keeping my opinion the same. Thatโ€™s good enough for me. Iโ€™ve evolved changing or have โ€œtweaked โ€ my thoughts as I age but I truly think the world would be boring as hell if we all agreed. I wish we could do it in a civil way.

I am not the best for sure but not the worst either

I Elaine can be an ass. I can be to giving I don’t speak up enough and I certainly don’t challenge others opinions. I am not the best at things but not the worst either. I am me just plain Elaine she’ll get over it.

I love I mean really love my daughter my son in law and mostly my grandkids. I love Todd he has let me be me.

I have regress back to being nineteen again

When Dale died I did too. I needed to find me good bad and indifferent I stopped growing and became dependent on Dale. I am who I am now through grief My best friend Sharon was wonderful but I believe I’ve let her down and all others.

Those good time came with many more bad times I didn’t share. You never asked

I love you just don’t want to be the ass that argues with you. Remember that. If you ask I will tell you. If not it dies with me.

Love you xoxoxox